Monday, February 28, 2011

Hair Envy

I strongly suspect that one night, probably not too long from now, I will wake up to find my grandmother standing over me with a pair of gardening shears, fully prepared to take off every single inch of my hair that she can reach. Every time this woman enters the bathroom to see me doing ANYTHING at all with my hair, she makes some backhanded (obviously stemming from envy) comment. "Why are you so obsessed with your hair?!", "What is with black women and their hair?!" Blah, blah, blah. This time it was, "If you keep combing your hair all the time it's going to drop out!" My grandmother is bald. And every single one of those comments is usually followed by an enquiry about the products that I use on my hair.

Yeah, Grandma. After that, you can figure it out on your own.

...And on that note, I will be showing this week or this month's (I haven't decided yet) Hair Crush:

Chime <3

Hair envy!! Any normal person (no matter their race) would want her hair. And I definitely do! I'll be doing everything I can to get there. As of right now, the back and sides of my natural hair are just touching my shoulders, and my straightened hair, (which I'm not actually straighening, just stretching) is beginning to pass APL.

Currently, I don't have a specific hair regimen. I can give you guys the basic breakdown, but since I'm going to be trying something different very soon, it's not a final one.

Washing once a week with Kinky-Curly's Come Clean Shampoo
Conditioning once a week with Giovanni's Smooth as Silk Conditioner
Deep Conditioning with Giovanni's Smooth as Silk Conditioner mixed with Coconut Oil

and I hadn't really gotten the moisturizing and sealing thing down yet :( But I'm trying. I'm not really sure how often I should be doing it with natural hair, and what I should be using, but I'm working on it :)

I'm going to try co-washing every week(or twice a week), only shampooing once a month, and incorporating vegetable glycerin and Giovanni's Leave-in Conditoner into my regimen, and see how it goes :) I'm also looking for a protein-free deep conditioner.

I'll probably be doing a hair post once a week, and the hair crushes once a month :)

Good Luck on your Hair Journeys you guys!

Top: Blazer, H&M, Bodysuit, American Apparel, Jeans, Angel, Necklace, Stitches. Bottom: Prom Dress, Sirens (I think.) Pearls, Vintage.

The beginning of mine :)

Current Music: I Dream by Waldo's People (favorite song EVERRR)

Friday, February 25, 2011

Lamentations from a Former Friendship

Born Ruffians

Jan 30, 2010
I'm supposed to go hang out with my friends today and (once again) I'm late, just sitting here listening to Born Ruffians like I've got nothing to do. They're gonna pissed when I get there.

Sean is a total brainiac but a total asshole about it. He talks down to people a lot. Even me. Which I don't appreciate since I know for a fact that I'm smarter than he is. I talk about him like he's horrible and he kind of is( I think he may be something of a misogynist) but I still completely adore the guy. And he gives me piggie-back rides whenever I ask.

Matt somehow manages to be the most beautiful male in existence and he doesn't even know it. He's self-centered and whiny, but very perceptive and he has a way of saying exactly what you need to hear right when you need to hear it.

Brandon is my love. Completely amazing and not even aware of it. He's funny and sweet and totally adorable. My favorite one of the guys since he never gets moody like the other two.

Sasha is my second favorite person in the world(next to myself). I personally think that she is my soulmate. My best friend. Don't know what I'd do without her. I'd probably die.

Paige is the funniest most awesome person in the world. Probably also the most sexually open. Never stops talking about it. She makes everything more fun just by being there. If I had to describe her to someone who didn't know her I would say:guy trapped in the body of a girl in the body of a guy. Seriously, when I have a guy-related question I'm too embarassed to ask Matt, Sean or Brandon about, I ask her. 

Crap, now I'm really late.


Guess I didn't die.

Inspite of the obvious nostalgic themes in this post, I think that this experience was a good lesson in survival for me. If I can walk away from a person who was my best friend for six years without a backward glance, there is nothing I can't pull myself out of if I want to.

There may or may not be a few more posts like this. They won't all be so flattering. Trust me.

I think I need to get all the negativity and resentment I've harboured towards people out now so I can move into adulthood unhindered.

Current Music: In a Mirror by Born Ruffians

Monday, February 21, 2011


I want my life to be full of important things. The really important things. Things that make life worth living. I don't want to be one of those people who just passes the time, and passes the time until they get old and die. With more regrets than they had happiness.

I wish someone could answer all my questions.

Current Music: Sweet Nothing by The Velvet Underground

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Baby Dragons. That is all.

Ladies and Gentlemen, it is 3:40 am on this side of the planet, and as per usual, I can't sleep. I could go into detail about all the things that are bugging me, but I'm too tired. I've been having a series of extremely odd dreams lately. In fact, if I were a normal person, they could be considered nightmares.

It's windy outside tonight. Extremely windy. The snow is starting to melt after a long beautiful winter and I have to admit I'm kinda sad since I was actually loving it.

A couple of nights ago, I dreamt that I met this blond woman, older and kind of motherly, I travelled for a long time to see her (oddly enough, the journey began at my elementary school :?), and when I didn't want to leave her, she told me not to worry, that I would see her in six months. Weird, and a little creepy, but it was an amazing dream.

*Dragonflies are really Baby Dragons*


Current Music: Help is on the Way by Rise Against

Saturday, February 12, 2011


These are some pics that Tanu took of us at the mall. Sigh. At some point one of us is going to have to get an actual camera.

Calm Before the Storm?
Or are we in the eye of it?

Current Music: Nothing Else Matters by Metallica

The New Baby!

I thought I'd do my first outfit-of-the-day post in honour of my new.... LOOKBOOK ACCOUNT! This beautiful website is a testament to my personal belief that someone's personal style is self-expression just as much as any work of art <3

Today I went shopping with my BFFL, Tanu. Since we're both broke it wasn't much of a shopping trip, but we did enjoy pigging out in the food court! Behold the beautiful new baby I picked up at H&M(my favourite store along with American Apparel and Costa Blanca):

Lol, I ended up having to take this in the bathroom because my room is such a mess :(

Isn't she adorable?

When I got home I tried to take a few pics to create my first look, (which failed miserably), but this gorgeous new facebook profile picture came out of it.


(Cardigan, Costa Blanca; Top, H&M; Leggings, H&M; Bag, H&M, Cameo Necklace, Vintage) 

And some cameo-luv for you.


Current Music: Bloody Sunday by U2

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Time to Commit Mass Homicide and Call it a Day

I had decided that this blog was not going to be a place for more of the indiscriminate ranting that I do in real life, but you know what? Screw it!

I have never been pissed off at so many people at the same time in my life! Sasha, Roxanna, MOM, Roger, Brandon, and last but definitely not least, myself. How can one person manage to screw up so many different relationships in such a short span of life (which, honestly, probably won't last much longer if it goes on like this).

Sasha: You were a lousy friend, and a lousy person, and I'm not sorry that I disposed of you. What am I sorry about however, is the fact that I managed to lose all of my best friends in the process. I isolated myself as a courtesy to you, and what was left of our friendship, but I regret that I lost Sean, Brandon and Matt in the process.

Roxanna: I've probably spent more of our friendship despising you than I have liking you. I don't know what it is about your life that makes you so completely undependable, but for once I would like it if someone I consider one of my best friends could actually be around when I needed her. But you know what? Early in our friendship, I already knew what you were like, it's my fault for keeping you around.

Mom: There are so many small seemingly insignificant bad things in my life that have happened to me, that I feel like you could have effected or changed, and to me it seems like you never even tried. Before those things never really bothered me, but now, with the onset of adulthood, all the little things that bothered me about my childhood are rising like a tidal wave to drown me, and I can't talk to you about it. And I know that nothing you can say would change it.

Roger:  I don't even know what to put here. I probably liked you more than I've ever liked a guy in my life. I have no idea what people are talking about when they say they have a "connection" with someone. To me it just seems like stupid, pointless romantic slang. I don't understand why people can't just say what they mean, and I admired you, because I thought you always did. Thanks for bothering to let me know before you decided that you weren't going to talk to me anymore, I wish I knew what I'd done wrong.

Brandon: If you ever read this, I'm glad I know exactly what I did wrong with you, but I wish you'd asked me about it or given me a chance to explain. You didn't hear what you thought you did. I liked you a lot, and I never would have said anything to hurt you. The whole thing with you and me was kind of odd wasn't it? Almost an entire courtship carried out in a series of looks and gestures? I wish we'd been smart enough to say what we felt in the beginning, for a long time I've regretted not getting a chance to apologize to you, and I've always wondered what could have happened. But honestly, I spent the majority of the time I liked you feeling guilty because of Ksenia, so maybe that manifested itself in it's own way.

I want to apologize to all the people above, I obviously had a hand in where all of our relationships went wrong. I hope that my own social ineptitude doesn't keep me from being more successful with this kind of thing in the future.


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